Today, as I was making my way through the mess that is Kampala's traffic to the General Post Office to pay up my box rental bills, I got this sms. [her in red, me in blue, my thoughts in green].
Hi i never ever want to c u again dont act lyk u knw me ok
At first, I was taken aback, wondering what this was about.After thinking of various scenarios, I decided that may be I had done something very wrong without knowing and now I'm paying for it. So, I keyed this reply:
Eh...now what did I do? Why didn't u just tell me that y'day or on Sun? Sorry 4 whatever it is, that wont fade my feelings 4 u.
I wish i had knwn earlier yo jst the same lyk every other guy
Just like any other guy?!!! That coming from a lady can mean anything! So, I send a neutral one that could bring back answers so that i know what I'm dealing with:
Like how? Of course i'm like any other guy esp whn it comes 2 wht makes me male species
Fyn then forget abt ok
Oh shit!! I'm thinking, I have just blown it. Let me try to explain, may be it will put us back on track:
I meant it in the biological sense not in the way u tryg 2 hint @. What's up with this? I cant 4get abt u, Swt λάππϊε
Kidding its 1st april
Ha ha. I ws pullg pranks on others & didnt think of getg punk*d!
I had pullied one on Ѓοζϊε about white stuff like snow covering the ground in the morning, though she doubted, she still looked outside the window to see...ha ha, how we can be fooled!!
Showing posts with label Letters 2 Cassidy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Letters 2 Cassidy. Show all posts
Tuesday, 1 April 2008
Saturday, 29 March 2008
Me and You
In this third part of the sms series that I embarked on partly because of the generous offer of my service provider and partly of my initial correspondences with Cassidy and her warm reception, I tackled the issue of relationships. In this case, a particular one [but I won't say whether it is past or present or future or a fiction based on true life, that will be for the readers to judge]. Like in the previous one, mine in blue, her in red, paraphrases/elaborations in green. You will notice that this was mostly a monologue.
Thinkg how 2 start this bt I'll throw pointers 2 get focus. Whn I call abt 10, I'll just listen 2 u. My batt is low & there's no power, hope it holds up.
2 get a persepctive, we need 2 recount how this started. It ws @ an event I attended just 2 show face, hv a few beers & out since I didnt hv other plans
It ws golf tournmt, a game I hd little interest in, bt since I hd bn 2 one the yr b4, I knew a little. 2 me, it ws fun day bse there ws dinner & dance after.
Golf is a game that can last a whole day, so I spent time @ the [clubhouse] on kb [read: conversation], tv & booze. It wsnt much later that things were 2 bcme more interestg
As part of event mgt, I ws assigned duty of receiving guests 2 dinner, ws 2 do this wth a gal cald Sal, we were later joined by another cald Lisa.
By ths time, I hd startd kb wth Sal whc Lisa joined in. dont remember topic bt we wre able 2 kp it going 2 dinner. At the table, we wre joined by 2 guys.
Kb ws generally abt life, atmosphere ws lively & drinks wre flowg. Of the three gals, Lisa struck me as a free spirit so I tended 2 talk 2 her mo.
After, there ws dance bt I wsnt in [it], neither ws our table. Besides gals hd 2 go, they claimed their BFs wre pickg them. Whn Lisa ws leavg, we exchanged nos [numbers].
Bt that ws not all, she gave me a hug (I didnt expect that). Wow, it ws heart warmg. In askg 4 her no. & giving my card, I ws taking a bold step...
Bold bse I didn't know wht 2 do wth that info. Bt I ws sure that I wanted 2 see her again. The times I called, the no. ws N/A [not available]. This is wht I wanted 2 avoid...
6am one day several wks later, she calls 2 wish me a gd dy. Wow, this ws different & it actually made my day. From then, we started 2 call each other and to...
...text & 2 meet @ different places. The more we met, the more I got 2 know abt her. She is v interesting & different, I like her company. She is great but...
...seems 2 conceal pain in her heart. Nevertheless, we all hurt in one way or another.
She is a fine lady, good looks, soft tender skin & a sexy figure. She's attractive & I've 2 admit that I'm attracted 2 her...
The thing wth attraction is that it can be one way or at different levels. The qn I ask myself, is she slso feelg the same? Many times I wrestled wth this...
many times I wanted 2 tell her bt i wd choke. I always believe in adddressg such issues in a face 2 face manner, so I send her sms hint so that she asks...
..she indeed asked me whn she came over 2 my office. Bt I couldnt flow, so I dodged that. The opportunity came at the least expected time thru sms & in club...
It ws after Val [St. Valentine's Day 14th February], she sent [a] thnx sms whc also hd 6 rules. My reply hd 'luv u 2' in it. A wk later, in Silk after UB40, is whn I 1st told her I'm attractd 2 her...
I dont knw if she remembers that. Bt now, since we hv let it known, what is the way 4ward? Qn will be answerd as story evolves. Gd nite Cassidy, hv a gd wk
With that I went to sleep, again way past midnight. But that was not the end of the story because I got more free sms to my credit when I loaded the requisite Shs 2,000 (a bit more than US$ 1) onto my cellphone.
The a'time gamed [this means run out] by since I hv some sms & u r lonely @ home, I'm going 2 continue the story: Me & U.
As we met regularly & came know more abt each other, a friendship devd & an attraction grew. She hs brought out a side of me that had died. I'm in a dilemma...
I'm tryg 2 restrain my feelgs yet I [need] 2 let it out. Bt I'm a prisoner of society, a prison wthout walls, unseen chains, can't rewind time, the clock kps tickg
At times, I wonder if it's my head or my heart or simply fate. If it's fate, it's predestined & I'm afraid. Heart, how far shd we go? Head, then it's rational.
This is an aside: As I ws thinkg of wht 2 write next, this songs plays on radio tht brings memories. It's cald "Freak You", 1 of thse raunchy male songs that shd be 4 foreplay ha haa
The story continues...At this pt, there is need 4 a perspective. At the back, there's baggage from both sides: I hv a partner & she told me she hd a BF tho...
...she told me they chucked [ended the relationship]. She ws down that day, I ws truly sad 4 her. I'm not a shrink, all I know there is love afta love & pain heals, a new page turns.
Anyway, our baggage is each of our own biz 2 handle. we r in this 2getha, as we look 4 a way 4ward, it'll hv 2 be us. Now, as we come 2 this, I [need] 2 look back
4 a month or so in Jan-Feb, we spent a lot of time 2getha mostly watchg ftball, I think that's where [the] bond grew. Whn it got heavy, she suggested a break but I...
...thot it ws better 2 put [it to] an end & work myself out of the system. But that ws the head, wht abt the heart? wht abt fate? A few [days] down the road was Val...
Experience hs taught me, this's when a guy hs 2 come correct (In high school I didnt show & lost the gal). Not that I feard 2 lose Lisa, I follwd my heart...
...i hv learnt that it's the thot that matters, that's the head. With that, the heart guided wht I did; music, roses, chocs...the kiss. Yes, it ws the 1st time...
...that we kissd tho I hd felt like it b4 then. However, such things r not rushd, it's better whn they flow naturally. I read somewhere that you dont ask [for] a kiss it just happens. I've 2 tell her that I enjoyd the moment (mwaah). That's the heart, does fate have a role here?
That's a qn that we can grapple wth & not get a clear answer. How do we know that it's fate that brought us 2getha? It ws a conscious decision 2 exchange nos, call & meet. Bt wht enabled us 2 be in a place at the same time & thru that maze of pple make that 1st contact that spawned this?
Thank u Cassidy 4 inspiring me 2 write, bt I don't want 2 be like the poet who wrote beautiful prose that the gal ws more in love with the words than the author.
Hi, thanks, hope yo gd, well abt the msgs i dont knw wat to say anymre
Thinkg how 2 start this bt I'll throw pointers 2 get focus. Whn I call abt 10, I'll just listen 2 u. My batt is low & there's no power, hope it holds up.
2 get a persepctive, we need 2 recount how this started. It ws @ an event I attended just 2 show face, hv a few beers & out since I didnt hv other plans
It ws golf tournmt, a game I hd little interest in, bt since I hd bn 2 one the yr b4, I knew a little. 2 me, it ws fun day bse there ws dinner & dance after.
Golf is a game that can last a whole day, so I spent time @ the [clubhouse] on kb [read: conversation], tv & booze. It wsnt much later that things were 2 bcme more interestg
As part of event mgt, I ws assigned duty of receiving guests 2 dinner, ws 2 do this wth a gal cald Sal, we were later joined by another cald Lisa.
By ths time, I hd startd kb wth Sal whc Lisa joined in. dont remember topic bt we wre able 2 kp it going 2 dinner. At the table, we wre joined by 2 guys.
Kb ws generally abt life, atmosphere ws lively & drinks wre flowg. Of the three gals, Lisa struck me as a free spirit so I tended 2 talk 2 her mo.
After, there ws dance bt I wsnt in [it], neither ws our table. Besides gals hd 2 go, they claimed their BFs wre pickg them. Whn Lisa ws leavg, we exchanged nos [numbers].
Bt that ws not all, she gave me a hug (I didnt expect that). Wow, it ws heart warmg. In askg 4 her no. & giving my card, I ws taking a bold step...
Bold bse I didn't know wht 2 do wth that info. Bt I ws sure that I wanted 2 see her again. The times I called, the no. ws N/A [not available]. This is wht I wanted 2 avoid...
6am one day several wks later, she calls 2 wish me a gd dy. Wow, this ws different & it actually made my day. From then, we started 2 call each other and to...
...text & 2 meet @ different places. The more we met, the more I got 2 know abt her. She is v interesting & different, I like her company. She is great but...
...seems 2 conceal pain in her heart. Nevertheless, we all hurt in one way or another.
She is a fine lady, good looks, soft tender skin & a sexy figure. She's attractive & I've 2 admit that I'm attracted 2 her...
The thing wth attraction is that it can be one way or at different levels. The qn I ask myself, is she slso feelg the same? Many times I wrestled wth this...
many times I wanted 2 tell her bt i wd choke. I always believe in adddressg such issues in a face 2 face manner, so I send her sms hint so that she asks...
..she indeed asked me whn she came over 2 my office. Bt I couldnt flow, so I dodged that. The opportunity came at the least expected time thru sms & in club...
It ws after Val [St. Valentine's Day 14th February], she sent [a] thnx sms whc also hd 6 rules. My reply hd 'luv u 2' in it. A wk later, in Silk after UB40, is whn I 1st told her I'm attractd 2 her...
I dont knw if she remembers that. Bt now, since we hv let it known, what is the way 4ward? Qn will be answerd as story evolves. Gd nite Cassidy, hv a gd wk
With that I went to sleep, again way past midnight. But that was not the end of the story because I got more free sms to my credit when I loaded the requisite Shs 2,000 (a bit more than US$ 1) onto my cellphone.
The a'time gamed [this means run out] by since I hv some sms & u r lonely @ home, I'm going 2 continue the story: Me & U.
As we met regularly & came know more abt each other, a friendship devd & an attraction grew. She hs brought out a side of me that had died. I'm in a dilemma...
I'm tryg 2 restrain my feelgs yet I [need] 2 let it out. Bt I'm a prisoner of society, a prison wthout walls, unseen chains, can't rewind time, the clock kps tickg
At times, I wonder if it's my head or my heart or simply fate. If it's fate, it's predestined & I'm afraid. Heart, how far shd we go? Head, then it's rational.
This is an aside: As I ws thinkg of wht 2 write next, this songs plays on radio tht brings memories. It's cald "Freak You", 1 of thse raunchy male songs that shd be 4 foreplay ha haa
The story continues...At this pt, there is need 4 a perspective. At the back, there's baggage from both sides: I hv a partner & she told me she hd a BF tho...
...she told me they chucked [ended the relationship]. She ws down that day, I ws truly sad 4 her. I'm not a shrink, all I know there is love afta love & pain heals, a new page turns.
Anyway, our baggage is each of our own biz 2 handle. we r in this 2getha, as we look 4 a way 4ward, it'll hv 2 be us. Now, as we come 2 this, I [need] 2 look back
4 a month or so in Jan-Feb, we spent a lot of time 2getha mostly watchg ftball, I think that's where [the] bond grew. Whn it got heavy, she suggested a break but I...
...thot it ws better 2 put [it to] an end & work myself out of the system. But that ws the head, wht abt the heart? wht abt fate? A few [days] down the road was Val...
Experience hs taught me, this's when a guy hs 2 come correct (In high school I didnt show & lost the gal). Not that I feard 2 lose Lisa, I follwd my heart...
...i hv learnt that it's the thot that matters, that's the head. With that, the heart guided wht I did; music, roses, chocs...the kiss. Yes, it ws the 1st time...
...that we kissd tho I hd felt like it b4 then. However, such things r not rushd, it's better whn they flow naturally. I read somewhere that you dont ask [for] a kiss it just happens. I've 2 tell her that I enjoyd the moment (mwaah). That's the heart, does fate have a role here?
That's a qn that we can grapple wth & not get a clear answer. How do we know that it's fate that brought us 2getha? It ws a conscious decision 2 exchange nos, call & meet. Bt wht enabled us 2 be in a place at the same time & thru that maze of pple make that 1st contact that spawned this?
Thank u Cassidy 4 inspiring me 2 write, bt I don't want 2 be like the poet who wrote beautiful prose that the gal ws more in love with the words than the author.
Hi, thanks, hope yo gd, well abt the msgs i dont knw wat to say anymre
Friday, 28 March 2008
Love
The following is the second part of the sms series, the topic is love. Note: as in the first part, me in blue, her in red and paraphrases/elaborations in green between parentheses.
I'm on the way home, I'm reflecting on the tough topic [that] u have given but I'll draw on different experiences, what I've read & what happens around [me or us]
2 look @ wht we think, know or feel about complex topics like love, life, sex, religion, money, death, we look @ the past 2 try & understnd the present & future
Of the complex topics I mentioned, love is quite unique. It's a beautiful positive feeling but rises many negative emotions: jealousy, insecuirty, obsession....
As I had said earlier, it is our experience with love & the environment in which we do that eventually form our view. So, what is mine?
I dont knw u tell me. Wat r u doing hme apart 4rm writing to me?
Hmm....maybe it's why u chose that topic. I'm just chilling, having kb [read: conservation] & smsing, there ws no power bt it's back now. The story continues...
Before my story, let me share this: Perhaps love in all its aspects is the most covered subject in books/print, music, film, drama, dance & other expresssions
And this refers to different kinds of love: Filial (mother-child, bro-sis), agape (friends), eros (normally man-woman, incl. sexual attraction).
I have experienced all these. The 1st two from the time I came 2 be & from the time I started my 1st steps [in]reaching [out] 2 others around me. What about eros?
My view is filial is the highest form bse ideally it is unconditional. Sth agape & eros may lack bse they are based on choice whch we dont hv in the 1st
Sme searching abt your topic
Btw, I'm writing it from my heart & head like an article. This is with inspiration
Eros comes later & around the time we start 2 experience changes in our bodies. I had my 1st taste from this cup at 16, I ws struck & even many yrs later...
I recall how it felt 2 be in love then, bonding came natural, she ws 2 yrs younger. We exchanged letters, gifts & visits, we met many times alone 4....
....just kb, 2 listen 2 music & 2 kiss. I still remember the [cassette] tape she gave me (by Madonna). She's the 1st person I kissed, it ws "electric", a great moment
It really must have bin the fact dat u recall it
Maybe that's why i like kissing. However, I cant tell u who she is, at one time she ws some kind of celeb (Red Pepper).
Our relationship lasted a few months [until] whn she had 2 leave our hood 2 live elsewhere. I ws sad abt it but eventually got another, I hd started on this path
We were in [the] same class bt diff sch. [read: schools] Now this is wht they call a high sch sweetheart...ours played out in the letters we wrote every wk & during sch functions
Surprisingly, we didnt even kiss, we were 2getha from abt S4 till campus [university]. It's funny that whn we were free 2 do it, that's when we crumbled.
It ws something that started as a small matter bt ended the affair. She linked with an OB of mine & he filled in the gaps. Damn! She's around town & we met &...
No, we didnt. I think it ws fate..we had many progs [read: dates] 2 club, beach, icecream bt sth would come up. After her, there were others, there's indeed love after love
In all these, one thing is that the end [of the relationships] ws not bitter. Somehow, things would run their course, I'm thankful 2 these ladies 4 that time, there ws sth I learnt...
As I grew older, sex featured more regularly...it ws now eros proper. Tho sex alone is another topic, it plays a role in love (eros). But what hv I learnt?
Intimacy & friendship r integral 2 [a] relatnship [if] it's 2 last. Bt not evry erotic one shd hv this bse of many other factors outside.
With this, I knocked off way past midnight that night. The last and final part is yet to come....and it is the series with the most number of sms.
I'm on the way home, I'm reflecting on the tough topic [that] u have given but I'll draw on different experiences, what I've read & what happens around [me or us]
2 look @ wht we think, know or feel about complex topics like love, life, sex, religion, money, death, we look @ the past 2 try & understnd the present & future
Of the complex topics I mentioned, love is quite unique. It's a beautiful positive feeling but rises many negative emotions: jealousy, insecuirty, obsession....
As I had said earlier, it is our experience with love & the environment in which we do that eventually form our view. So, what is mine?
I dont knw u tell me. Wat r u doing hme apart 4rm writing to me?
Hmm....maybe it's why u chose that topic. I'm just chilling, having kb [read: conservation] & smsing, there ws no power bt it's back now. The story continues...
Before my story, let me share this: Perhaps love in all its aspects is the most covered subject in books/print, music, film, drama, dance & other expresssions
And this refers to different kinds of love: Filial (mother-child, bro-sis), agape (friends), eros (normally man-woman, incl. sexual attraction).
I have experienced all these. The 1st two from the time I came 2 be & from the time I started my 1st steps [in]reaching [out] 2 others around me. What about eros?
My view is filial is the highest form bse ideally it is unconditional. Sth agape & eros may lack bse they are based on choice whch we dont hv in the 1st
Sme searching abt your topic
Btw, I'm writing it from my heart & head like an article. This is with inspiration
Eros comes later & around the time we start 2 experience changes in our bodies. I had my 1st taste from this cup at 16, I ws struck & even many yrs later...
I recall how it felt 2 be in love then, bonding came natural, she ws 2 yrs younger. We exchanged letters, gifts & visits, we met many times alone 4....
....just kb, 2 listen 2 music & 2 kiss. I still remember the [cassette] tape she gave me (by Madonna). She's the 1st person I kissed, it ws "electric", a great moment
It really must have bin the fact dat u recall it
Maybe that's why i like kissing. However, I cant tell u who she is, at one time she ws some kind of celeb (Red Pepper).
Our relationship lasted a few months [until] whn she had 2 leave our hood 2 live elsewhere. I ws sad abt it but eventually got another, I hd started on this path
We were in [the] same class bt diff sch. [read: schools] Now this is wht they call a high sch sweetheart...ours played out in the letters we wrote every wk & during sch functions
Surprisingly, we didnt even kiss, we were 2getha from abt S4 till campus [university]. It's funny that whn we were free 2 do it, that's when we crumbled.
It ws something that started as a small matter bt ended the affair. She linked with an OB of mine & he filled in the gaps. Damn! She's around town & we met &...
No, we didnt. I think it ws fate..we had many progs [read: dates] 2 club, beach, icecream bt sth would come up. After her, there were others, there's indeed love after love
In all these, one thing is that the end [of the relationships] ws not bitter. Somehow, things would run their course, I'm thankful 2 these ladies 4 that time, there ws sth I learnt...
As I grew older, sex featured more regularly...it ws now eros proper. Tho sex alone is another topic, it plays a role in love (eros). But what hv I learnt?
Intimacy & friendship r integral 2 [a] relatnship [if] it's 2 last. Bt not evry erotic one shd hv this bse of many other factors outside.
With this, I knocked off way past midnight that night. The last and final part is yet to come....and it is the series with the most number of sms.
Wet Dreams
Recently, my telecommunications service provider came up with a promotion that gets its subscribers 3,000 seconds of free airtime [that is 50 minutes!!!] and 25 free sms. The catch is that you have to load a bit of airtime (Shs 2,000, a bit more than US$ 1) to get the offer and have to use this to numbers on the same network, within the 24 hours that you are on.
With a lot of airtime to dispose of, one sweet day, I called my dear friend Cassidy. We talked about a wide variety of issues and she signed off with a "Sweet Dreams". To this, I asked what that phrase actually meant because I had my own expectations of what sweet dreams I would have that night. Her reply was quite sacarstatic [are those wet dreams?].
The remainder of the 3,000 seconds ended at this point, but I had a few sms left. So I started "smsing" on that topic and below is a recap of what went on [I in blue, her in red, and the paraphrases in green].
Ok, meanwhile I'll be texting abt different things. Just [keep] reading
My battery is low, but I'll continue texting esp abt wet dreams whn I charge, I'm a twisted muthaf&@ka.
Haha will be waiting
When we talked abt dreams & u thot wet ones, it reminded of an [argument that I] had wth my pals. It's hard when u r sexually active bse sperms r being let out.
Some guys said they had even they were active, maybe [bse] the taps r loose. So the 1st reason doesn't hold
On the other hand, at that time I ws not sexually active & don't hv wet dreams, that [means] 1st & 2nd cases didn't hold. What is the true picture?
Reality is some hv, others don't & itsn't directly related 2 sex. Hv a gdnite, thanx 4 this weird episode.
Haha very funny seriously. Am dying of laughters u guys even talk abt dat shit I've hahad.
This was the beginning of my 3-part sms series that I call "Letters 2 Cassidy" that partly helped break my writer's block and inspired me to start this blog. Check the next series on love.
With a lot of airtime to dispose of, one sweet day, I called my dear friend Cassidy. We talked about a wide variety of issues and she signed off with a "Sweet Dreams". To this, I asked what that phrase actually meant because I had my own expectations of what sweet dreams I would have that night. Her reply was quite sacarstatic [are those wet dreams?].
The remainder of the 3,000 seconds ended at this point, but I had a few sms left. So I started "smsing" on that topic and below is a recap of what went on [I in blue, her in red, and the paraphrases in green].
Ok, meanwhile I'll be texting abt different things. Just [keep] reading
My battery is low, but I'll continue texting esp abt wet dreams whn I charge, I'm a twisted muthaf&@ka.
Haha will be waiting
When we talked abt dreams & u thot wet ones, it reminded of an [argument that I] had wth my pals. It's hard when u r sexually active bse sperms r being let out.
Some guys said they had even they were active, maybe [bse] the taps r loose. So the 1st reason doesn't hold
On the other hand, at that time I ws not sexually active & don't hv wet dreams, that [means] 1st & 2nd cases didn't hold. What is the true picture?
Reality is some hv, others don't & itsn't directly related 2 sex. Hv a gdnite, thanx 4 this weird episode.
Haha very funny seriously. Am dying of laughters u guys even talk abt dat shit I've hahad.
This was the beginning of my 3-part sms series that I call "Letters 2 Cassidy" that partly helped break my writer's block and inspired me to start this blog. Check the next series on love.
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